As Christians we are never without trials. Jesus Himself said we would have these trials, however He would deliver us from everyone of them. This past few weeks we have been in a trial. Troy recently received some news that would challenge us in many ways. Suddenly we were making Dr appointments and consulting specialists. Of course it’s always a waiting game with a medical diagnosis, and this is when fear can step in and speak to your mind. It was me and not Troy that became overwhelmed with fear for about 24 hours. I cried, imagined the worst and was fairly miserable with grief.
It did not take me long to reach out to Jesus and seek the wisdom of the Holy Spirit. He gently but firmly spoke to me ” You can stand on Fear or you can stand on Faith, however you can not stand on both”. I gave my fear right back to the Lord. You see Faith is a living thing with in us, it is either there or it isn’t. I have a foundation of faith that came only through trials.
“No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear.”
― C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed
Yes you see grief feels very much like fear. Every single person on the face of the earth will deal with grief at some point in their lives. It isn’t if it will come, it’s when. I have had my encounter with grief and am very familiar with it. It would be easy to slip into fear and imagine the worst that could happen to my love, my best friend, my partner, my husband. Of course the enemy will attack your mind with all sorts of imaginings. After spending some time with the Lord, I was instructed to reach out to some particular brothers and sisters in the Lord for prayer, very specific prayer. Interesting each person knew that it was a direct attack from the enemy. We heard this from two different couples. One dear brother even received a specific diagnosis on what the condition was. And although we are waiting for confirmation, this indeed is what the specialist thought it was. How amazing that the Holy Spirit revealed this to our brother in the Lord. We were also told that the Lord had assigned extra angels to Troy for this specific assignment. We were told that it would be a trial, but that we would come through it. I had already set my mind to that. You see standing on Faith isn’t a weak thing to do, it’s isn’t saying everything will turn out rosy, it’s simply trusting God. That’s it in a nut shell.
You can not stand on Faith, and also stand on Fear. They simply oppose one another, and your mind will battle with this. We have to decide ahead of time whom we trust. For me it’s an easy choice. I win with God no matter what the outcome is. Wise words were spoke to me from a sister in the Lord through this. She said “Don’t let Satan steal your joy.” The devil comes but for one reason brothers and sisters, it’s to steal, kill, and destroy. Through this the Lord has kept speaking lovingly to me, He said “No weapon formed against him will prosper”.
Through this I had a visitation from an evil spirit that clearly told me it was responsible for this, it said “I have put a buried weapon in him” this came through first a dream, then as I woke up I had the actual encounter with this demon. I simply told this demon to GO IN JESUS NAME! And I told it no weapon formed against him will prosper. I understood that the enemy was seeking to attack us, and bring fear and confusion to us. But God is good! Amen? He doesn’t leave us like orphans in a storm, no he instead brings others alongside us to pray and to stand with us. I’m so grateful for this.
So we will know soon enough what we are dealing with, but it’s already OK. BECAUSE OF JESUS! I pray that when you face a trial you will first realize that it isn’t a peculiar thing happening to you, in fact expect it. And second, stand on faith. Reach out to your brother and sisters in the Lord to uphold you in prayer and support. The Holy Spirit will even show you who specifically to reach out to. The Lord will not abandon you, He will never abandon us. And in this I am so thankful. God Bless you all and we love you.
Ann Rockers
